|My art may not be much or great but this is to show and say if someone like me can draw so can you, and it is to get those who are afraid to show their talents to come out and say "hey I can do art too" and be proud of it.|
Hey there, first I like to say that has commissions going on and could do with the money aswell as she is struggling, so if you could help her in anyway then please comment here
Need money urgently commissions openedI am really frantic right now & my sister is even in a worse state, we are due to go away on holiday on 14th July & my sister rang me a few hours ago telling me that a friend of ours is dropping out in going, which means the money she was supposed to pay towards the holiday wont happen & both me & my sister cannot pay her part., her commissions are very cheap and you get way more for what you pay for, so go check her out .
We are going to be staying in Ingoldmells in Skegness & my sister has booked 2 8 berth caravans, everyone is paying their fair share towards it & she's already paying for our dad as he is struggling financially. We need to raise about £400 so I will be willing to open up commissions etc to help with the cost of this, I will be slow at doing these as I am overloaded with personal situations myself.
This is the last family holiday we are going to for a very long time, as myself & my partner will be focusing on saving a deposit towards the house we are buying from his mum, so this is the final family holiday we are going to be spend
Secondly I like to apologise for my last journal, I was really unwell and things got the better of me, but I do like to thank everyone and I do mean everyone, specially those who poured their hearts out to me and really stuck with me, infact I was surprised how many came to my aid, even ones who randomly noted me and even one of my older friends on Facebook spoke to me and helped me aswell.
I never excepted people to come just like that, I knew some would as they always do, bless them, but the amount that flocked to help me was really amazing and I have no words to express my gratitude, except for thank you, it really means alot.
Specially after all I had been through last week, specially that Monday where I was at my worst and worst part was I was mainly left alone to fight my problems, my illness, I asked the professionals to help me, all they did was put me in a hospital that day where I was almost admitted to the mental ward, and I had to save myself from that,there was no one else that helped me that day, my CPN let me down big time, he says he do this and that, what has he done? Where is this help? He has failed me so many times I have lost count, infact alot of the professionals have failed me that I am beginning to lose faith in the health scheme, infact want to know what one doctor did to me all because I was crying at the hospital? Just left me in a room by myself, no one to comfort me, no one to say it be alright, just "you either stop or I am not going to help you", and everytime I broke he just sent me out like a child who did wrong.
I was left at that hospital by myself for at lest 4 hours, ok 4 hours is not along time, but that amount of time spent in there felt awful, my anxiety was high, no one was helping, all I got asked was "why are you cry?" and it wasn't polite, it was more of stop crying or you get nothing.
I had to get myself out of there by convincing them I was ok to go home, it wasn't easy, but if I stayed there it would of made things worst, so lucky I was sent home, but by myself, no one again was there, no one bothered to show up on my doorstep to make sure I was ok, I had to spend my whole night sulking to myself, even though I spoke with people online and such, letting out how I felt, infact helped me to cheer up by playing a game with me, she knew I needed that after all the horror I went through, has been noting me and really keeping the smiles going with her supporting words, phoned me on whatsapp to make sure I was ok, even though unwell herself cheered me up and was there, said something in my last journal that hit me in the feels and made realise how stupid I was to push people away, specially when she said she wouldn't unwatch me and that she takes people as they are,so that is saying something to those so called professionals, why does it take a bunch of people to do your jobs? Sure I know the the best help and cure is from those close, but they shouldn't be doing your job, infact even they know that my illness isn't just OCD and that there is more to this, so my message to you so called professionals is wake up and get your head out of your butts because this is real and this affects me and many others in the real world, and don't give me that under staffed rubbish, I know the difference between swept under the rug and strained, so get off your butts and help me.
Ok that rant is over with, but going back to the thanks I am grateful to you all who stood by me, I will remember what you all done and will remind myself the next time this plays up what I really got, I couldn't be more grateful then what I am now, thank you all, I really owe you alot.